Thursday, September 25, 2008

Life...

Not that this is interesting or anything, but I am soooo tired of shady people. People who are looking to make a but at your expense...people who are inconsiderate of other people...and people who lie. Lately, I've been a little overwhelmed by these types of people in my everyday life...and it sucks!

Talk about a creativity killer...my life has been so crowded around the stress that these people cause that I can't think for a minute about what I want to do...much less reflct upon my own shortcomings and resolve to do better.

It's a neverending circle, don't you think?

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Headaches, etc...

I'd just like to tell you about how bad migraines are. If you've never had one, you're very lucky. Yesterday I was making my breakfast when suddenly, my vision started to go patchy. For those of you that get migraines, that patchy vision, though not painful, is one of the scariest feelings ever because it is the precursor to the wretched pain that comes with a migraine. When that happens to your vision...you KNOW what is coming! As your vision comes back, the pain starts. It is relentless and there is no where to run or hide from it. Even migraine medicine fails at times. When you're coming down, you are exhausted and want to sleep. Sometimes...if you're really blessed...you'll wake up with a headache, too even after your migraine was dying down. I have had them for 2 days! Talk about Purgatory on earth!

So, yeah...yesterday sucked! I had a lot to do and was incapacitated with a stupid, freakin' migraine! Even though it let up after about 4 hours, I always feel foggy and stupid and off-balance after a migraine. It's like permanent brain damage or something. The horrible thing is that people who have never had a REAL migraine often don't cut you any slack when you have one (this is unfortunate, especially in a work environment.) I am useless as an employee, mother, cook, or even a couch-potato when I get one. I can't read, sleep, watch TV (or my daughter for that matter) walk, drive or do much of anything when I get migraines.

I just had to get that out. Ok...I'm done!

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Holy Crap, I'm Skinnier!!!

Ok...Some of you might not care, but since I haven't lost any weight, I decided not to get my hopes up about losing inches. I've begun measuring myself every 30 days and I have lost 1 1/2 inches from my chest, 1 1/2 inches from my waist, and 1 inch from my hips! YAY!!!! The pain is paying off! I've also increased the size of my biceps a little...GRRRR...muscles...

So, that's it...more evidence of success with perserverence. Who's with me?

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Losing My Ass

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Monday, September 8, 2008

Reestablishing My Creativity

For those of you that know me...I used to be a creative musician.
I feel that I used to be fun to hang out with, exciting and funny...and a little..."off."
Now, since I've been a mother for 1 1/2 years, I've changed.
I don't write or perform my music. And I definitely rarely go "out."
I am happy...but thirsting for my sense of self.
I have lost a piece of who I am as a person. As my person and not "mother, wife, chef, cleaning lady, daughter, teacher, sister, secretary, accountant" and the many other hats that I wear.
I have forgotton who I am as a "friend and artist."

I am resurrecting "Hethur." The one we all used to know that is still there under that tired skin. A little more mild-mannered, I'm sure...maybe a little more quiet and conservative... but certainly not any less hard-headed, hot-tempered or mischevous.

Trust me...you'll see...